Afraid And Courageous

I've heard it said that we should not be fearful... but courageous. But do they not come hand in hand? Can you even be courageous without first overcoming fear? I would dare to say that nothing good in my life has ever come my way without me first having to overcome some sort of fear. These days, I no longer avoid fear. Quite the opposite actually. I walk directly into it.


           1. an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.


           1. the ability to do something that frightens one.

I have never stormed into battle atop a valiant white steed with a majestic sword raised above my head while screaming "TO VICTORY OR DEATH!" But I did ask the girl of my dreams to marry me. I've never blitzed into a burning building with a handkerchief over my mouth to rescue a frightened little dachshund puppy dog. But I have sat on the side of the bed with my wife staring in complete wonderment at a positive pregnancy test. Courage can sometimes be found in real-life versions of what you see in epic Hollywood movie scenes but it can also be found in everyday-life situations.

Maybe you are in a profession where you risk your life every day for your community or country. Maybe you are a college student who's aspirations are bigger than your current GPA. Maybe you are a single mother who wonders if you are able to give your children the life they deserve. Maybe you have spent the last decade and a half steadily taking small steps toward a large dream that seems to be moving away from you faster than you can catch up to it.

No matter who you are or where you are in life, fear will find a way to whisper lies in your ear. It will keep you up at night filling your head with doubt and discouragement. It will try it's absolute best to convince you that you are a complete failure. It wants nothing more than to derail you from the track you know you are meant to be on. - DO. NOT. LISTEN. TO. FEAR. - Keep doing what you are doing. Stay the course. Ignore fear and take hold of courage.

Nothing worth doing is easy.
No destination worth reaching can be found down a clear path.
No dream worth catching can be grasped without a chase.

Fear has tried to stop me from doing many things in the past 33 years. It has succeeded in a few areas I am sure. But never again. Here's to facing fear (not avoiding it) and boldly walking into courage.

        "No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us."
          - Romans 8:37

Fear is not a locked door.
Fear is a corridor that leads to courage.
Courage is the key to achieving your purpose.

Who... Me?

For 17 years now I have actively been chasing an fairly illusive dream. I say "dream"... but it's more than that for me. It's an irresistible draw. An unshakable attraction. An unavoidable calling. I can't remember a time when I didn't feel it's pull. I eat, sleep and breath it. I work endless hours and constantly hone my skills to become better at it. I can't turn it off and I can't run away from it. The funny thing though... is I don't really fit the part.  Not technically.

To say music is my passion is an understatement. Whether it be writing, producing or performing I feel most in my element when I'm operating as a "working musician." To be a great musician you need to be good at a number of things other than music. On stage you should be bold and engaging. You should be able to take a crowd into the palm of your hand and take them where you want them to go. You should have a larger than life persona. Off stage you should be personable and good at networking. Striking up a new friendship could come in handy down the road so you should have great communication skills. You really really should try to be likeable. After all relationships are the most important part of this business. Oh yea... and never forget that it is indeed a business so work on those skills.

Me? I'm a painfully introverted quiet southern guy who isn't well versed in good manners. I got over my stage fright years ago but I don't love the feeling of having all the attention put on me. I honestly don't really like to be in the spotlight. I can surely ramble into a microphone between songs a thoroughly confuse a crowd but putting them "in the palm of my hand"  ... occasionally? Not only am I not a larger than life personality... I tend to try and blend in with the wall paper. I'm great at being awkward in social situations. I'm terrible in meetings. I suck at introductions, I don't make new friends easily and I loath making new relationships that are strictly business. I am likeable once you get to know me, but a lot of the time people think I feel weird toward them upon first meeting me. And business? Oh man. I couldn't be more terrible at anything than business.

And yet I am whole heartily pursuing this thing that I apparently am not fully qualified for in a lot of areas. So why do I do it? Because I am very confident in the areas that I am qualified. I've learned over the years that it is much more effective to try and blow people's minds with what you can do instead of trying to trick them into liking a fake version of you. I can write songs and I can perform them well. My singing voice behind a microphone speaks for me and I've learned to let that side of me do all the talking.

Here's to being yourself.